Motherhood Nostalgia

I found out over the weekend that I'm pregnant for the second time around.  This time, it didn't come as a surprise anymore--- Brandon and I have talked about Trixie turning three this year, so it was a good idea to have another baby, plus the fact that I'm turning 30 this year, but that's another story...  I've been seeing signs that Trixie might be ready for a sibling.  Early last month, Trixie toilet-trained herself and she now bugs us to bring her to school.  Our old maid also came back and Trixie likes her a lot, so I let them play together when I'm at my wit's end.  I call this God's perfect timing :) But there's something different this time around. I find my belly bulging more and I read that it's quite normal during the second pregnancy because the body kinda remembers how a "watermelon" grew in the tummy and the muscles don't quite resist anymore!  But other than some physical changes, I've been having these emotional outbursts whenever I spend sweet, quiet moments with Trixie (and these might also be the effect of surging hormones).  I find myself crying when I realize that with the growing belly comes diminishing moments with Trixie sitting on my lap.   For now, I won't be able to run with her in our backyard, jump and play silly with her in the mornings, and I won't be able to carry her in my arms for long.  I think she knows it too because she would look at me in the eye and that sweet look brings even more tears.  I find myself kissing and hugging Trixie more these days and assuring her that I love her very much.  Well, soon, there will be two of them and there will be more drama haha!  But I'm really happy that God blessed Brandon and me with another baby.  Trixie will be a big sister soon, and that thought always makes me smile.